This song has so many meanings. Only two people know and every time I hear this song I just cry. Jordy this song is dedicated to you.
I think this song has come on my Pandora twice today…and every time I just cry. Maybe because I am just going through some stuff right now. Anyways, I often wonder if things would be different. If we would have done life differently. Is this why I take to heart when some one says they dont want to be my friend, or dont think its a good idea to not be friends. When this happened I thought of the moment when you said the same thing to me and how my heart felt torn out of my chest.
It was a cool spring night and we were laying underneath the stars talking about how we are going to grow old together. We were going to be 80yrs old and rocking in our rocking chairs talking about how our life was great and we could share it with each other. I remember u leaned over gave me a kiss on the cheek and whispered in my ear that you would always love me. No matter what! We weren’t dating at the time we were friends. The best of friends!! Shared everything together. Our hopes, dreams, and future. I loved it. Later during the night I remember you looking at me like I was the prettiest girl ever and you could love no one like me. Then the conversation started. It was getting late and we were talking about our lives and something out of the norm was said. I looked at you with a confused perplexed look on my face. I could see that what you were about to tell me was going to crush me. As I sat there with tears filling up in my eyes as you go on to tell me that you didnt think that it would be a good idea for us to be friends. You talked about how we had a good run but it doesnt feel right to be friends and you just really needed time to think. You gave me one last kiss and one last hug. I remember standing under the stars just you and I hugging and crying. You gave me a kiss one last time on the forehead and walked away. I couldnt do anything but stand there and cry. I remember standing there what seemed like hours thinking to myself where did I go wrong? What just happened?
A few days later I heard from you and all you said was “Meg as much as I love you and care for you I dont want to hurt you anymore. This is the best and easiest way but we need to end things. I love you and I want you to remember that. I want you to remember that your care, love, support and encouragement will be with me always. I will never forget the times we had and the trails we went through. Your my green eyed girl and I love you, but think it’s best for us to go our separate ways.” Standing there numb having you kiss me one more time, squeeze me like you’ll never let me go is embedded in my brain. I pushed that memory in the back of my head, haven’t thought about it until last night. When my heart was broken, because all I could see was your face and you walking away from me all over again. Granted it was different circumstances but the pain felt the same. I just hope and pray that this is a different outcome.
I saw you a few months back at a concert. All of the memories came flooding back to me. I just wanted to run and give you the biggest hug and tell you how much I missed you. I saw your smile and my heart melted. Then as you got closer you were holding your wifes hand. As you got closer we exchanged a “Hello” you introduced me to her and then pointed to her belly (which was about 6 months pregnant) and told me the great news. That you were going to be a daddy and you both were happy in love. I kept on that smile I had until you were out of sight. Then I just thought the whole night about what could of been. I saw how happy you were and I couldnt help but know that you were happy was a good thing.
